I got my new tattoo yesterday. I LOVE IT. There is nothing like the sweet pain of getting fresh ink done. I am so happy with the outcome. The only parts that really were hard to handle were the front legs and the outline of the feathers. But I just bit my lip and kept going.

I was really surprised that Jason sat with me. He was not very happy with the whole idea. But he sat there and talked to me when he could tell that it was starting to hurt. Here is a picture of the finished piece. Its not the best picture because it was really hard to get a self-photo of it but you get the idea. And you can tell by the smile on my face I am really happy to have it.

Now I just need to get me a new job. I like the new vet clinic that I work at but I really want a real job. You know one that has a future. I am not getting any younger and I want to do more with my life besides answering phones and entering charges into a computer. I wish I had a sugar daddy to buy me a studio and I could just work on art stuff and do my own thing. I wish we could go back to a trade and barter economy. I have a lot of neat talents that would work well in that kind of economy. I can make lip balms and lotions and dish soap and laundry detergent. But it doesn’t have an applicable use in this society. Oh, I can make candles and weave baskets too.

When I was a child I had always wanted to be an actor. I was one of those people who knew from a very early age that I wanted to do something with art. But my self doubt left me feeling like that was out of my reach but as I grow and age, I realize that I am good at doing art.

I love talking to my Daddy. I just spent the last 45 minutes doing that. I wish that I could talk to him more. But I cant. And I cant see him more often. I hate how distance divides families. But I LOVE my new ink. I am gonna get off the computer finally today. I will write more later.